It’s 9:05 PM and I have just finished up some last minute things around the house. Typically, I’m off to bed at this point but tonight is different…
I received a phone call today from the director of foster care at my agency. Weird that she was calling but eh ok. She asked simple inquiry questions about my first placement. I was by no means in trouble or had done anything wrong. She was just asking some simple questions about some appointments the kids had while in my care. Needed some details to fill in some missing pieces about the case. No big deal. Right? Then she mentioned the state was wanting to know a few more details about the case. I replied with an “Oh, ok. No Problem.” All it took was one complex sentence out of my mouth about something the doctor had stated about two of the children and their on going need of medical care and she was satisfied with my answers. I was so busy and consumed with trying to leave work that it didn’t dawn on me what she had said until this afternoon. The state had called. Still confused by the conversation with the director, I put it in the back of my head to think about later.
But during my quiet time tonight it hit me like a ton of bricks. THE STATE DFCS OFFICE HAD CALLED. WHAT?!? That’s not normal. Not by any means. They needed more details. More details. I had those details.The state doesn’t investigate just any old case. They get involved when things are messy, when things are not done in the proper way, when things have not gone as planned. The kids. Something isn’t right. Oh Dear Lord, I am begging you, please make sure those children are OK.
So tonight I have a very heavy heart and I’m wide awake. Adrenaline has kicked in because of worrying I’m sure. Things have been added to my to do list now. One of which is to call my caseworker tomorrow and see if I can find out what’s up because you would not believe how much I still miss those kids and how much I still in fact worry about them. Each and every day, I think about them. Wonder what they are up too.
I ask for prayers for those three special little ones. The three that I will forever be bonded with because they were my very first placement. Pray for their safety. Pray for their well being. Pray that they are alright.